I told this story to a friend today and she encouraged me to blog it. Selah means to pause, to take a breath, amen to that, that’s right!
*It was the first day back from a busy trip away (one of those you can’t call a vacation) when I sat before the Lord ‘feeling’ rather spent. I cried out, “Lord, I am a mess. I haven’t eaten well. I failed to exercise. And that’s just my physical condition. My Spirit is in even worse shape! Forgive me Lord and HELPPPPPPP!” From the depths of my heart I heard His Spirit whisper, “Susan, My mercies are new every morning.” SELAH And with that I melted. Hot tears of great hope streamed down my face in the presence of an all knowing, mighty forgiving, tender loving God. My heart was filled with love and all hope was restored in that one statement of truth. That was 6:30 a.m. three hours later He reminded me again, just because He is good and because He loves me!
* That same night at church I was so looking forward to corporate worship. I have a perfectly lovely time when I am alone with God but when you bring 2 or more ‘hungry believers’ together to praise the Lord – great things happen. My heart was expressly given over in worship when our Pastor stepped up and instructed us to ‘get past the music and get beyond the words and begin to tell God how much you personally love Him. Express your heart to the Father’. Without hesitation I hit my knees and bowed my head before the Lover of my Soul, Jesus Himself. Sometime in that deeper place of worship I began to experience a vision. The best I can describe the type of vision I experienced is that my eyes were closed but inside ‘I Saw’.
*FIRST, I saw a beautiful forest. Tree trunks tall and brown stood beneath the lush green leaves that held dark fruit like a nut. The trees were in perfect alignment like the crosses of Arlington Cemetery and the grass a beautiful shade of green. There was no sound that I can remember and I remember no smell. But the view was appealing to the natural eye. NEXT, I saw all of those trees uprooted and piled up one log upon another like a brush pile. Then it began to burn. I asked the Lord, “Why is that forest burning?” He replied, “Susan, that forest is a picture of the church (I knew that to mean the corporate body of Christ) and they are rooted in Self. That forest looks like the world far too much to stand out and make any difference in the earth. When my people look like everyone else they cannot make a difference. Who will be drawn to what they already are? That is why I am igniting my refining fire. That My people might be set apart from the world and draw the lost in”. SELAH *I don’t think He spoke these following words but my Spirit was impressed to know that God’s refining fire is a place of His love and His compassion. It is not to destroy but to refine His children, a place to help us find His plan and His purpose for their lives. The fire is a place where we die to self and learn to set Jesus on His throne. He is the Potter, we are to be His clay; lives that no longer conform to the trappings of this world but lives that are being transformed by the renewing of our minds. A man’s ways seem right to him but they lead to death the Proverbs enlighten. That forest looked very inviting to me but what God was letting me know that everything that glitters is not gold. Or perhaps it is gold and He has something MORE lovely than gold for His children. After all, gold in heaven is pavement!
*THE FINAL VIEW was a different forest in which the trees were see through, clear outlines of tree trunks. I asked, “Lord, why are the trees see-through?” Still seeing this new forest in my spirit man eye, He answered my question, “Susan, my people need to become transparent before God and before man”. And when He spoke that word transparent those tree trunks filled up with blood from the bottom up. It was the most amazing, most colorful, most meaningful vision I have ever known. That blood filling the trunk from the bottom up brought the life of Jesus into those trees and caused the limbs with their thick green leaves and fruit to appear just as our lives come to life and display the fruit of the Spirit when we are rooted and established in Jesus Christ. He went on to explain, “Susan, that other forest was rooted in self. Yes, they are the church and yes, they know me as Savior, but they still allow their flesh to rule them and the works of their flesh were the fruit hanging from their tree. And Susan, that fruit doesn’t look much different than that of the lost. There is nothing attractive to draw the lost and dying to Me! Not when you are rooted in self.”
*TRANSPARENT – I knew exactly what He meant about becoming transparent. Transparency or getting real with God and with my spiritual mentors is what has affected a change in me over these past 15 years in Christ. At some point every believer must take a deeper look inside themselves and ‘make a list’ of those things that we need to ‘get rid of’ in order for Christ to shine in us. Personally, I like to think I jump into the refiner’s fire because truth be told there is no good thing in me BUT Jesus! Out with self – in with Him.
*The Apostle Paul spent a lot of time in his letters teaching on the difference of the works of the flesh and the fruit of the Spirit. The fruit hanging on a tree that is rooted in flesh are found in Paul’s letter to the Galatians 5:19-21; immorality, impurity, indecency, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, anger (ill temper), selfishness, divisions (dissensions), party spirit (factions, sects with peculiar opinions, heresies), envy, drunkenness, carousing, and the like. I warn you beforehand, just as I did previously, that those who do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God. (Amp. Bible) But the fruit hanging on the trees rooted and established in Christ Jesus with His blood flowing through their trunks is the fruit of love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness and self control. That is the forest we are to dwell in.
*Now our Pastor, unbeknownst to me – a woman just returned from a busy vacation and had missed a few sermons, Pastor had been shining a spotlight on the sins of our church. Strife, envy, the need to forgive, back biting, back stabbing, jealously and the like. But I only found this out when my vision ended and he started to preach. The lures in our society take us in and take us down. The internet and its social networks allow us to say anything we want without facing anyone. Responsibility often goes out the window when you are alone with your emotions at a computer. But we must remember that ‘the world’ reads us and ‘the world’ is looking for the answer. We, the believers have the answer. His name is Jesus and He lives inside of us. When we are transparent then He can be seen.
*And in that last view of the vision the one with lush green leaves hanging from the trunk rooted in Christ, its fruit was inviting. It was a place you would want to climb in and hangout for the day, or a lifetime. I imagined a fragrance of great beauty in this place and the sound would have been that of the most perfect day; children’s laughter, a gentle breeze, a loved one calling your name. His last words to me in this vision were “Susan, this is my message to the church, to your home church – individually and corporately. I want to refine my children that they would become set apart from the world and become a magnet for the lost to find me”.
And my response is, “Lord, start with me!”